Yesterday was my second mother’s day.
My sister sent me this photo earlier last week that she took of me and my Jujubee last year on Mother’s Day.
A few things come to mind.
1. OMG chubby babyy!!!!
2. Hot Mess Mom mode.
3. So. Tired/overwhelmed/stressed out
4. What was I thinking having both mine and Jeff’s families over, like didn’t I have enough going on with my colicky, acid reflux baby?? <– I totally remember thinking this too, but it just seemed easier since Jules’ sleeping and eating was so difficult at the time.
This year was was soo different. I posted this last night on IG. (Follow me!)
I can’t believe how far we’ve come between 6 and 18 months. My whole mindset has shifted regarding this whole motherhood thing and I felt it SO much yesterday. Last year I felt alone in the sense like, “Why am I the only mom who isn’t up on my facebook page, giving thanks to how happy I am being a mom and thanking my child for choosing me as his mother” and all those tributes people write. Where last year I was searching for that joy, this year I truly, truly felt it and realizing this made me so grateful and so happy. I’ve come so far in 12 months it’s almost as if a weight has been lifted off me.
Last year I was juggling a cranky, grumpy Julian, feedings and naps while cleaning the house and getting our food together – not relaxing. This year Jeff let me sleep in while he took Julian out of the house. They came home with a dark roast coffee and chocolate croissant for me, along with flowers and a card Julian carried over to me himself. So amazing and it meant so much. Julian then gave me the best gift of all, a 2 hour nap midday and me and Jeff just vegged out. I felt slightly guilty for not doing anything but the weather was so rainy and dark we just stayed cozy. What a difference a year makes!
The rest of the day was a bit more hectic and I got some bad news about my mom’s cancer but I was able to spend time with her in the end and saw my MIL as well.
It’s not like me to be super in detail on social media but I just had to say something yesterday….and then elaborate today on my mom blog 😉
I cannot wait to see where we are as a family this time next year. I hope anyone reading this enjoyed a weekend well spent this past week.